im bored. damn bored i dont know what to do and im not sleppy.haiyaa!whats wrong with my eyes ha?im wnt to change my id but i dont know what and when i wrote it,its change to ERROR. i dont want anybody to read my blog because its so personal. ena,you can read mine because you alrealdy knew about my bloody blog.:) yeah few more hours then kl here i come. I dont really know whats happening to me right now bcz i dont feel calm. i feel that something is missing and i have to find it asap. just now i take a look at one of my myspace's friend. her pic are so cool and she got a great friend. i wish i had that kind of friend.yea la,i know i already have my cool friend but you know we always argue and fight. its just that our group is so weird,i do love them so much tho but yeah i hope that one day we all gonna be together you know as a group. I REALLY WAIT FOR THAT MIRACLE okay. REALLY DO. and i wish i have someone who i can tell anything about my prob bcz my friend dont seems like they really care. all that they ever want is ENJOY! as long as they can hang out and be with their boyfriend and talk about others. They are nice,pretty and kind but sometimes i just dont know where is my friend?where are they when i need them the most?im sure if one of my friend call me and want to say something ill be a listener. i still remember last two month im having a very bad fever. i cant even stand. my mom were to panik and one week after that im goin to my house and papa pick me up and he was like "faresha ure face pucat la, i think you demam last week tu HINI.yeah. i really think so" but thank god i survive! NONE OF MY BESTIE CALL.only umirah the one who i always make fun of and i feel guilty.im so sorry umi and thanks fr the call. i dont come to school for 1 week and 2 days but my friend dont even care at all. even my bstfriend in my classmate eca. Eca i knw you not gonna read this blog but if you ever find out which is i think never bcz i wnt to change my id.hey girl you knw what when your dad died i was worrying bout you like hell. i swear! i text you always to give you that spirit spirit and i dont even think that you care girl. im sorry to say that.babe i do care about you oky?i do love you but i dont think you like me at all. i told you about my stuff and when you meet me you make fun of me girl. i know most of evrthg about ure fam but i never make fun of that infront of others kan?im sory babe. i just feel sad right now. And god thanks fr sending me praveena. she is the best la. evytime i call her she will be there,evrytime i text her even about the same things she will calm me down. and evrythings happen to her,she will tell me. its like babe your diary is my diary and my diary is your diary. theres nothing i COULD ASK FOR MORE. but now you are far away and i know that one day we will meet again. we will babe.we will. ILOVEYOUTOOMUCH GIRL.and if i can make a wish right now,ill wish that you will stay near me alwys. miss you alots sayang.:(( i dont know why im so emo right now. haih. what am i crapping nih.but yeah ill read it back when im old.:)