i am so bored right now. i know im sppse to be studying right but yeah im not in the mood. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me.haih.papa,im sorry okay?mummy,im sorry.=(.but hey next year i promise that ill study hard.like really hard. promise papa. i promise! im gonna delete this blog i guess. maybe when school start. i mad at myself right now bcz i know a secret that can breaks someone heart! but if i ever tell him thats mean i btrys my friend trust!yeah,it is suck! his happy right now and i dont wnt he bcm sad anymore.nahh,i dont want that happen. HELL NO okay! man,im sorry okay?im sorry! i just want you to be happy thats all. and i dont wnna betray my fren.;(

Baby can I have a moment of your precious time?
So you and me can get it out just for a little while
I'm gonna be straight up, not gonna lie
'Cause I've had enough
I've had enough of...
You don't know everything you've put me through
Just step aside
Been blinded by the spotlight

You're no better than me
You're no number one
Baby, without you I see
You're not at all what I thought you'd be
Every time that I try you come along and pass me by
Baby notice me, just for once
For who I am not what you want

Break me down to build that legend in your own mind
Sorry that I couldn't be another "yes man"
Sit back and watch while you command attention all the time
'Cause I'm fed up
I'm fed up with...
You don't know everything you've put me through
Just step aside
Been blinded by the spotlight

You're no better than me
You're no number one
Baby, without you I see
You're not at all what I thought you'd be
Every time that I try you come along and pass me by
Baby notice me, just for once
For who I am not what you want

Im into this lyrics.

Jika mahu mndapatkan yg soleh, kurangkan agenda mnCARI si Soleh, tetapi berusahalah mnJADI yg solehah. Jika inginkan yg solehah, jgnlah cerewet mnCARI yg solehah, tetapi berusahalah mnJADI yg soleh. Bertemu yang solehah, solehahnya belum tentu kekal. Bertemu yang soleh, solehnya boleh berubah..kerana si soleh dan si solehah adalah insan biasa...

tukar kpd soleh n solehah tu kpd mr.perfect. n mrs. perfect.

i talk to someone last night. his nice. damn nice. i wish i can be like him one day. yeah,you are my idol now. thanks fr evrythg. it means alot okay? i hope u'll be happy forever with ure loves one. you deserve that happnss. really. you are too nice man. she should be proud to have you in her life. yeah, eventhough you have ure own probs but you still treat me nice. you know ill be there for you if you need someone, friend. i will. anytime im here for you bcz fr me you are too nice and you deserve that. ;)
thanks ;) i wont write ure name bcz im scared that u'll get mad. i dont wnt that happen okay?;)

ok,its 3a.m now and im bored. damn bored. dont know what should i do. really.
just now i called eca but she switch off her cell phone then i call ena. oh yeah, i miss that voice!really do! talk to her for awhile. ena kecik,i miss you alot okay. today i watch 3 movie. i just watch twilight. damn,im in love with edward!HIS SO HOT OKAY! but my crush is hotter!;) i wish ill have a future husband just like him. i knw thats just a DREAM!;)
okay now im gonna write about what i feel.i just need to let this thing out!

i miss him.i just want to see his face maybe for a second?pls?i dont know why im so into him. i really dont know why! and yeah im tired of this nonsense feeling. im tired okay. i just cant stop praying to god. help me. calm me down plus i know his always there.mr.you have no idea how much i love you and need. one thing thats always in my mind is i keep wishing that my face cross your mind and i wish i can stay with you.be with you.only you. and i wont get bored of it.im waiting fr you. im sure that one day ill do something. text me?say hye?is that so hard to make me so happy?ha?or i dont even deserve happy? am i too bad for that?i know im not good enough fr you and too ugly but hey i bet im the one in this world who have been waiting fr you since i was small man!

i miss him!

Well I am what I am could be what yoru are.
Is your pain when you smile cos you feel alone?
And are you strong enough to be yourself??
Papa used to say "You're just a loser
and you're never gonna have what it takes"
Mama used to say "All that loud music you play ain't gonna get you nowhere"
you gotta be yourself.


i just want to change!



tried to tell you how I feel
I tried to tell you but I'm weak
Words don't come easily
When you get close I shiver
I watch you when you smile
I watch you when you cry
And I still don't understand
I can't find a way to tell you
I wish I was your lover
I wish that you were mine
Baby I've got this feeling
That I just can't hide
Don't try to run away
There's many things I wanna say
No matter how it ends

this is for you man!

im bored. damn bored i dont know what to do and im not sleppy.haiyaa!whats wrong with my eyes ha?im wnt to change my id but i dont know what and when i wrote it,its change to ERROR. i dont want anybody to read my blog because its so personal. ena,you can read mine because you alrealdy knew about my bloody blog.:) yeah few more hours then kl here i come. I dont really know whats happening to me right now bcz i dont feel calm. i feel that something is missing and i have to find it asap. just now i take a look at one of my myspace's friend. her pic are so cool and she got a great friend. i wish i had that kind of friend.yea la,i know i already have my cool friend but you know we always argue and fight. its just that our group is so weird,i do love them so much tho but yeah i hope that one day we all gonna be together you know as a group. I REALLY WAIT FOR THAT MIRACLE okay. REALLY DO. and i wish i have someone who i can tell anything about my prob bcz my friend dont seems like they really care. all that they ever want is ENJOY! as long as they can hang out and be with their boyfriend and talk about others. They are nice,pretty and kind but sometimes i just dont know where is my friend?where are they when i need them the most?im sure if one of my friend call me and want to say something ill be a listener. i still remember last two month im having a very bad fever. i cant even stand. my mom were to panik and one week after that im goin to my house and papa pick me up and he was like "faresha ure face pucat la, i think you demam last week tu HINI.yeah. i really think so" but thank god i survive! NONE OF MY BESTIE CALL.only umirah the one who i always make fun of and i feel guilty.im so sorry umi and thanks fr the call. i dont come to school for 1 week and 2 days but my friend dont even care at all. even my bstfriend in my classmate eca. Eca i knw you not gonna read this blog but if you ever find out which is i think never bcz i wnt to change my id.hey girl you knw what when your dad died i was worrying bout you like hell. i swear! i text you always to give you that spirit spirit and i dont even think that you care girl. im sorry to say that.babe i do care about you oky?i do love you but i dont think you like me at all. i told you about my stuff and when you meet me you make fun of me girl. i know most of evrthg about ure fam but i never make fun of that infront of others kan?im sory babe. i just feel sad right now. And god thanks fr sending me praveena. she is the best la. evytime i call her she will be there,evrytime i text her even about the same things she will calm me down. and evrythings happen to her,she will tell me. its like babe your diary is my diary and my diary is your diary. theres nothing i COULD ASK FOR MORE. but now you are far away and i know that one day we will meet again. we will babe.we will. ILOVEYOUTOOMUCH GIRL.and if i can make a wish right now,ill wish that you will stay near me alwys. miss you alots sayang.:(( i dont know why im so emo right now. haih. what am i crapping nih.but yeah ill read it back when im old.:)